Friends

i got so many gifts this year, its nuts. last year i spent about $600 on gifts and got maybe $200 in return. this year i spent like $300 and got probably $900 in return. its nucking futs! i feel so guilty.

i made cookies for sean, missy, nick's parents and grandparents but i didn't really need anything in return. it was just something i wanted to do. butttt sean and missy made ME cookies and gave me this magnet thing for pictures. i also got a ralph lauren blanket from nick's grandparents. and nick's parents got me organic socks, a new scarf, vitamin water, an eco friendly water bottle, candy, a sudoku calendar, gloves, a picture ornament of nick and i and all these scratch offs.

nick got me so much i feel like my 3 boxers, 3 sweaters, goodfellas dvd, and my personalized ornament were not enough. he got me wild pacific on dvd (AHHH MY FAVORITE SHOW! HOW DID HE KNOWWWW!?), a dvd of nature's most amazing events (HELL YEAH), a beatles CD and t shirt of the beatles! (:D), the NEW LADY GAGA CD! (oh man this made me wet myself), a ny giants huge glass cup that my dad has! hah!, a pantera dvd that megan marks already got me (he knew and got all sad but it was no biggie. i tried to lie but he can tell when im lying), a victoria's secret gift card! AHHHHHHHHHH, a calendar of DOGS with 365 pictures! oh my gosh! THEY ARE SO CUTE! MEG AND MONIKA ARE GONNA DIEEEEE when they see it hahahah!he also got me tons of sugar free redbull muahahah :D and he got me a few movies that i cant think of off the top of my head and and something else. but WOW i was opening gifts for a good 4 hours today.

NUTS!

emily KNITTED me an amazing scarf. i almost cried when i opened it. and then she got me the twilight scene it HAHAHAH :)

such a crazy xmas. and don't forget all the gifts from brit!@ jeepers! im gonna go watch some more wild pacific, mayn

come faster february ^&@%^$

 dear kelsey, please start doing school
( but no, really. )

baked cookies for 7 hours.
not even half done with all the cookies i wanna make.
tomorrow is dedicated to a nice clean shower, shopping for tissue paper and baskets, finishing the cookies, and making all the baskets.

so GET THIS
i was unpacking and noticed i didn't have too much room in my closet. so i start grabbing summerish-fallish clothes and throwing them to the top shelf of my closet. and i see all my "skinny" jeans.
all the jeans i haven't worn in 5+ years.
i haven't had the balls to try these on... ever.
not even after 3 months of weight watchers.
not even after ball (im acutally thinner now).

so i tried on the first pair.
a size 5.
hmmmm its been a good 5 years since i've worn a 5.
well guess what.

they fucking fit
THEY
F
I
T

so i went to take pictures quickly for future proof to myself
my hairs not great, kinds dirty
ive been awake two days and im makeup-less
but frankly my dear, i dont give a damn
heres a few of them i took just this afternoon ;)

haha. as you can see... wasn't even unpacked when i took the pictures. but yep. new pictures of the "physique" are up. get it girrrl

i really need to stop falling on my face for the entire world to see AKA my campus.
i have a huge dent in my face from falling INTO the corner of a wall, going up some stairs.
and yes. a group of studying ppl FACING the stairs saw me.
i also have burises all over my legs from saturday cause apparently i stepped on my empty m&m bag (yes im fat again) and the area rug at the same time and both went WHOOSH and i went down.

i hate not knowing what i do when im drunk.
i hate it.
why can't i STOP!?
why is it always HOW MUCH CAN I DRINK
why dont i just STOP after a buzz!?

i hate myself

and this dent is impossible to cover up! AND I HAVE A FINAL! AND IM MEETING MEG'S PARENTS TOMORROW
im screwed!
but at least the story will be an ice breaker.

thats what i get for using the last of my munch money on poptarts for meg since she doesn't have any left.
then running up the stairs and fucking UGH

i bet everyones LAUGHING at this too

i'll laugh about it in a few days. once this heals

i can't wait to get away from all of this.
at least wednesday adams moved out.
ugh. and im pretty sure this is only going to get worse once i go home.